March 1, 2011

  • Lost in the beat.

    I have a headache right now.

    I’m listening to Uprising by Muse. Loud enough to drown out basically everything.

    Would you like to know what it’s like to be in my head right now?

    Everything is swaying, but im moving with it. I’m /using/ it. My thoughts are throwing themselves left and right, back and forth, and my consiousness is using the momentum to move them further than they should. Everything is on a period thats frequency is decreasing. Its a feeling of a building climax. I can feel how each thought leds to the nexts, and i can /feel/ how momentum is building. Each motion, back and forth, adds more reserved inertia to my thoughts. Like a tank using a halfpipe of infinite height. The only limit on how far my thougts can go is how long i can stay in this state of mind.

    I don’t know how many other people feel this way, but when i get a feeling of…going with the flow, its one of the most exciting things that can happen to me. It’s like watching a boxer pulling off an incredibly complex combination perfectly. It’s like watching a waltz being executed with perfect timing and balance. This feeling of flow…moving from one thought to another without pause for how the jump will be made, or how the jump will be /explained/ to others is incredible. It’s functioning completely off of instinct. I don’t /have/ to pause for someone else to explain, i don’t /have/ to figure out how I’m doing things so i can explain it later. It’s pure unadulterated thought.

    I /love/ this feeling. I can do whatever i want and follow any path i want. I know that if i point my brain at a problem, i /will/ be overcome. I do not need to worry about how it will be done, i just know it will be.

    Bwahahaha, Anyone who reads this wont get it at all but i just want to record how /awesome/ this is.

    I love the swaying.

    I love the flow.

    I love the movement.

    Instinctual. Without Effort. Without Reason.

    It’s freeing.