June 12, 2011

  • My eyes refuse to see

    My ears refuse to hear

    All food is ash,

    and my hands are dead

    When I am without you, all is dull

    there is no contrast, no vibrancy

    just grey-on-grey-on-grey…

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    April 20, 2011

  • That tense feeling.

    Is it possible to find the rules of a system, given infinite amount of observation time of the system?

    I’m going to try to summarize my thought process that ended with that question.

    I was walking back from class down the main pathway to most of the school buildings. It gets quite busy at times, and i was walking on the grass instead of the pavement, because if you walk on the grass, no one will be in your way. Before i went on the grass i was thinking to myself, “Who will change their path in order not to collide with me, and who will I change my path for”. While I was pondering this i nearly ran into someone, thus i moved onto the grass where no one else was.

    Then I started watching people.

    I noted which people changed their path *(or at least to me, which people changed their path) and so on and so forth. And then i realized how absolutely mind boggingly difficult it would be for me to figure out the rules of the pathway system. But i also realized it would be possible for me to figure out the system, given enough time, and enough unique sets of data.

    Basically, i would be able to see when some people moved and when some people didn’t, and extrapolate from there a set of rules that defined the pathway system. The problem with this extrapolation is that it is based off of the individuals present within the system that follow their own rules for movement.

    In “The Game of Life” the rules are defined for the system, but individuals don’t have differing rules. All individuals follow the same rules, which are the system rules. Every individual has exactly the same decision tree. Therefore finding the rules for the game of life system can be based solely off of observation alone.

    But is “observation alone” enough to figure out the rules for any system?

    I think it is. At least, given an infinite amount of observation it would be. Philosophically others might disagree.

    Im leaving that train of thought for another.

    Is it possible to be unique in a data set of infinite size?

    No.

    Is there a difference between possibility and reality?

    Yes.

    Bwahahaha! My brain is dumb.

    What is the range of the function y=(1/(x-1)) ?

    (-infinite, 1) U (1, infinite)

    So basically, every single number in existence can be applied to the function except for 1. So one number out infinite does not work.

    1/infinite

    Isn’t this zero?

    …

    Nevermind. I just realized that i could never actually explain to anyone what I’m thinking. I can never make you understand what i actually mean. I will never be able to show you the light. The best i can do is help you discover a light of your own.

    Sigh.

    I need to be a teacher.

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    March 1, 2011

  • Lost in the beat.

    I have a headache right now.

    I’m listening to Uprising by Muse. Loud enough to drown out basically everything.

    Would you like to know what it’s like to be in my head right now?

    Everything is swaying, but im moving with it. I’m /using/ it. My thoughts are throwing themselves left and right, back and forth, and my consiousness is using the momentum to move them further than they should. Everything is on a period thats frequency is decreasing. Its a feeling of a building climax. I can feel how each thought leds to the nexts, and i can /feel/ how momentum is building. Each motion, back and forth, adds more reserved inertia to my thoughts. Like a tank using a halfpipe of infinite height. The only limit on how far my thougts can go is how long i can stay in this state of mind.

    I don’t know how many other people feel this way, but when i get a feeling of…going with the flow, its one of the most exciting things that can happen to me. It’s like watching a boxer pulling off an incredibly complex combination perfectly. It’s like watching a waltz being executed with perfect timing and balance. This feeling of flow…moving from one thought to another without pause for how the jump will be made, or how the jump will be /explained/ to others is incredible. It’s functioning completely off of instinct. I don’t /have/ to pause for someone else to explain, i don’t /have/ to figure out how I’m doing things so i can explain it later. It’s pure unadulterated thought.

    I /love/ this feeling. I can do whatever i want and follow any path i want. I know that if i point my brain at a problem, i /will/ be overcome. I do not need to worry about how it will be done, i just know it will be.

    Bwahahaha, Anyone who reads this wont get it at all but i just want to record how /awesome/ this is.

    I love the swaying.

    I love the flow.

    I love the movement.

    Instinctual. Without Effort. Without Reason.

    It’s freeing.

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    February 17, 2011

  • My best working environment

    Background noise: Hardcore Trance Techno

    Background Noise Volume: 11

    Ambient temperature: Three degrees below “Fucking Cold”.

    Food intake while working: Water. That is all.

    Posture: Terrible. If my leg isn’t asleep after ten minutes I’m in the wrong position.

    Best time to work: From 5:00 PM to 1:00 AM. Meaning at Five I start and at 1 I finish. If all homework is complete before 1:00 AM I continue to study.

    Favorite chair to work in: College dorm wooden chair. Alternatively, plastic folding chair.

    Best kind of computer to work on: One that has a keyboard.

    -o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-

    With that, I am off.

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    October 26, 2010

  • How to win at long term psychological warfare in games

    1. Establish yourself as a pathological liar. Lie through your teeth. Do this constantly. This works especially well in games where cheating and lieing have penalties, because nobody expects you to do either, thus making it essentially a skirmish in psychological warfare.

    2. Use your strengths to their fullest. Incorporate details about yourself into your fabrications. Are you a studying programming? Mention an article that you just read relating to the mathematics of the game. Throw in useless statistics. NEVER STOP TALKING. This will piss your opponents off to no end.

    3. Begin to tell the truth. Once you get to the point where absolutely EVERYTHING you suggest is double checked for factualness, start telling the truth. Start using real math and words that aren’t made up. Mention real articles and studies.

    If you do all three of these things you will establish yourself as an unholy terror on the gaming battlefield. Once you master these things and have a good (or bad?) reputation continue to the next phase.

    THE NEXT PHAAAAASE

    Hopefully while being a pathological liar and unholy terro, you practiced a little bit at the game. If not, you are an idiot. If so, you should have /some/ rudimentary skills and strategies. This is good. Start using them. But never overuse one. Have multiple backup plans and ways to harrass your enemy. Constantly threaten or attack your enemy. Disrupt their resources. Every second that they deal with your bullshit, they don’t spend thinking of a new strategy.

    After doing this for some time, you should have quite an arsenal of distracting strategies that you can pull off in your sleep. If not keep doing them. Once you can do them in your sleep though, work on an offensive strategy. Work at maintaining both your distractions and your offensive strategy. Learn to be EVERYWHERE at once. Make your presence know everywhere the opponent looks.

    …

    ….

    And then do some other stuff…

    Quite honestly i dont know where i was going with this…

    But there might be a part 2? =D

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